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February 21st, 2008 by tziaaa

I’m sorry.
Being such a terrible girlfriend.
I kept expecting you to be what I want.
& I didn’t do my part.
I had disappoint you & make you felt really depressed.
I’m really sorry.
I know I am not good enough for you. *don’t deny it*
You gave me all the freedom I want.
and so, I wouldn’t bother your life too.
You tried to message me more often. I know.
But it’s my turn to feel lazy to reply at times.
I cant explain why. sorry.
I tried to keep away from guys before this.
I ignore messages, ignore call, didn’t even bother to reply in msn.
But you still don’t trust me.
Before you start to message me like this frequent.
I start to mix more with other guys.
and now, I just don’t know how to stop.
They are already my close friend.
I know you afraid to loose me.
But you had ignore my feeling,
& make my friends get away from me.
I hate it.
I know I had went out often with other guys these days.
You start to be fierce to me. scolding me. ignoring me.
It’s my fault. I cant blame you.
I’m sorry.
I really tried to be a good & obedient girlfriend like how michelle does.
But when I tried, you didn’t.
& when you trying hard, I kinda gave up.
The timing is just wrong.
We both had tried. I know.
But things doesn’t seems to work out.
& in fact things got worst.
I will still hold on.
hoping things to be different.


Michelle

February 19th, 2008 by tziaaa

Have a talk with michelle on the phone last night.
Thanks for caring. Thanks for teaching me how to text him. lmao.
If I didn’t do like what you said. I guess I will be regretting very soon.
so yeah, why don’t I have a second try*which I desperately wanting*.
I can forgive someone really fast. I don’t know why.
But please do appreciate me. hmmm.
& If really failed again, then that’s it la.
she said I emo that’s why she also emo. so touching. wtf.
& she is asking me to learn from her guy.
Learn from him not to give up no matter what. hmmm.
anyway. Thanks Michelle!! Love you loads. xoxo.


wtf

February 18th, 2008 by tziaaa

Fuck another blog post of his.
made me doubt my decision.
wtf. wtf & wtf.
sigh.

fucked up day

February 18th, 2008 by tziaaa

A fucked up day. =(
No calls at all as I am waiting like an idiot.
To be honest,
I desperately want you back.
and want to be by my side on that moment.
I tried to talk to you.
but you still don’t get what I mean.
How much I hope you will stay up last night to talk to me.
Instead of that you went to bed and leave me alone.
If I am really that important to you.
I guess I at least deserve one night of yours.
I am like expecting missed call from you when I wake up in the morning.
But nothing.

It’s5.30pm.
When I stop expecting.
you told me you coming over my place as you own me an explanation.
hmmm.
I guess I don’t need that anymore.

I ain’t perfect.
I have too much expectation huh?
i KNOW i’m not even good.
But I know I’m unique.
=)


Please talk craps with me.
I’m trying to get away from serious matter.
I need some ”jack ass” stories.
It makes me laugh. lol.
Better still.
I hope someone do something in “jack ass” in front of me.
It would be pretty entertaining.
okie.
I’m just crapping…


emo

February 17th, 2008 by tziaaa

Well.
I went to his house.
But.
due to some reasons.
I felt sad.
Really sad. 

because of the way he treated me,
the way he act all the while,
his attitude.
& what I’ve heard.
I know
I ain’t that pretty.
I ain’t that hot.
I ain’t that understanding.
…

I make my decision to quit.
& I know my sweetheart chelle is supporting me this time.
I got screw by his friend.
But, I can swear that I had been serious in this relationship.
don’t you ever doubt it.

Thanks huns.

 

Sad face shouldn’t be seen.

 

17-02-08

went to four houses to “pai nian” today.
my family friend.
wtf. this face is emo.


the 2nd house.

Doggie in the 4th house.
I realize i ain’t afraid of dogs anymore.
Max & Carrie. =)

The little host & his dogs friend.
He’s the only children in the family.
& He is wearing Guess clothings wei!
You can imagine how rich they are.

Biggest Angpau of the day.
The small boy’s dad gave all of us RM50 angapau.
The 1st time i receive the new version rm50 =)

hmm.
why everytime when I had make my decision.
You came back to me and hold me back.
Telling me how much I meant to you.
This will be the only time I really felt love. & felt important.
I know what I’m thinking right now but I just don’t know what to do.
It’s not the first time already.
I’m confused. 

side effect for having too much free time

February 16th, 2008 by tziaaa

15-02-08 

Since I’m not working anymore.
& my mom doesn’t likes me to go out so often.
Most of time I will stay at home and rot.
sleep. sleep. sleep. online. eat. sleep. sleep. sleep.
will be my everyday routine.
OMGosh right?
so friend, free come my house visit me.

As I had said I am damm boring at home.
stupid things happened.

..
…
….

I start to act stupid and tortured myself.







This is the side effect when one have too much free time. =( 

16-02-08

I have too much terrible pics yesterday.
Is time for some decent, pretty one. lol.


oops. turtle. wrong place.

I got confused sometimes.
& I even start to doubt our love again.

I tried to talk to boyfren.
But he just don’t get me.
…arghh 

Joe came over to visit me today.
Later on howe thoon & joshua came over too.
Thanks God.
There are my life saver.
Though they didn’t stay long.
but. good enough.

thinking whether I should go to boyfren house later.
He had something on at his house.
& he invited lots of people.
*which is strangers to me*
I know i would be boring. sobz.
It’s already 5.15pm now.


2 DAYS

February 15th, 2008 by tziaaa

12/02/08
went valentines shopping with michlee.
it’s been awhile since we last walk and hold hands walking together.
I love michelle.
but this time. there’s 2 guys included in our outing.
I’m looking forward for a 2 girls date.
maybe 3. plus shin yee!!
=) 

she looking grest in this dress.
but due to some reasons.
she didn’t get it.


I went to shop for myself too.
spending my previous month salary.
spent more than 700 in a single day. 

mcky accesorries. walt disney princess top. pink pounch.
pink guess wallet. sasa mascara.


beggie. denim mini skirt.
I want to know how sweet a kiss can be.

and.
something for boyfriend. =)
 

14/02/08
It’s Valentines.

Getting ready.

 


Boyfriens planned to go tony romas.
But since it’s fully packed.
We went to a restaurant name Itallianese.
I like the environment.

boyfriend brought me this top & the mini.
Guys make great accessories.
& you would be my best accesorries. =0

Together with a card and a necklace.

well.
I didn’t really enjoy though.
maybe cause the time is too short.
hmm.
No idea.
but, boyfriend.
I don’t expect much too. =)
I love you lots.
xoxo.

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