November 30th, 2008 by tziaaa

You’d better be careful what you say to her, because it might turn around on you.
You’d better be careful what you do to her because somebody will definitely do it to you.

That’s what we call KARMA.

…..

I cried, just now. felt so useless.

Whenever I am down, she will be right beside me.
Whenever I cried, she will lend me a shoulder.
Whenever I got down, she will crack out lame jokes to make me laugh.
Whenever I need her, she will try her best to rush to my place.

and now, she got cheated by a bastard, & I can do nothing much for her.
sorry, girl.

I was turning around on the bed for the whole night,
thought of how I ask her to take the risk and have faith for him,

JEFFEY KEW CHEE LIONG.

I feel so damm guilty now!! seriously.

Non of my business I know,
but I just couldn’t bare to see my best friend got cheated and do nothing.
and so, I text him.

me.
I told del to put faith in you. yet, you treated her this way. bastard, you’re bound to get yourself burn one day.

he replied.
you don’t bullshit please. you care bout yourself first please. go be an AV model. I guess its better for you. Don’t piss me off.

me.
thanks for your concern. you ” TAKE CARE”

I guess I have it’s no point to argue with this type of people.
N-O P-O-I-N-T.

AV model? sorry, I am not that cheap and low class like you.
I am proud to have my own asset. unlike you, trying so hard to show how cheap you are. kissing and hugging other girls without concerning how she gonna feel. YICKSSSS!!!! seriously, take care.

this is what happened….
*part of jiashin’s blog.*
jiashin went madigras with adele.
….

& as for me, i would say,

江山易改，本性难移！

girls, please do feel lucky for not meeting him.
if you ever meet him. God bless you.

p/s – thanks for all my friends out there. your concern mean a lot to me. I love you people. =)

November 28th, 2008 by tziaaa

The wonder of it all is that you just didn’t realize how much
I loved you.

…

Went to secret recipe with classmates after class today.
had American brownies. I love sweet stuff, I believe it could sweetened up my life.

Joshua fetch us, as in me, Maggie and Emily to Asia Jaya bus stop after that.
I was finding opportunity to scream this few days, & I got it all out in Joshua’s car.
I kept disturbing Vinz who is sitting beside me, pinching & scratching him. He then hold my hand and I couldn’t move at all. I tried to bite, I tried to scratch, I want to take my pepper spray out, but all failed. If he were a rapper, I am gone. serious shyt. and this is when I got to scream it all out. feel so comfortable after screaming. teehee, I am insane, I knew it.

Maggie and Emily were waiting for bus to go back to Klang,
while I was waiting for teng han to come pick me up.

Both of them went off 1st, awhile later, Tenghan reached.
He was kind enough to come all the way from Suband to PJ just to pick me up. =)

Headed to his house with zhang bin. we will be having home-made lunch at his house today.
yea, home-made lunch, we are going to make sandwich yo!

Went to the mart to get some stock.
mayonnese, juices, tuna….
Zhang bin went home to get cheese and juices.
& Waichun came with eggs and tomatoes.

Waichun went to fetch shinz up when the clock struck 1pm.

Shinyee go back to work after that.
me and the other three guys stay at home and rot.

I just love SPORES. awesome game.
Waichun said it was damm childish, yet, he got addicted after trying.

tuning to Oliva – love fool

…Lately I have desperately pondered Spent my nights awake an I wonder
What I could have done in another way To make you stay

November 28th, 2008 by tziaaa

I never thought you’d hurt me, but I guess you live and learn,
always remember: Never waste new tears on old griefs.

…

痴心绝对- 李圣杰
最近 – 李圣杰
爱不起 – 林峰

I am sick. & absent from class.
*you wasn’t there* sigh.

November 22nd, 2008 by tziaaa

love can sometimes be magic,
but magic can sometimes be illusion.
…

Friday -

~ ” If I didn’t failed my accounts I will spent you people lunch. ” Fanny said it confidently end of last semester. yea, we bet on a lunch. If we he didn’t pass his account, everyone of us will need to spend him a lunch.

But, sadly, he passed his accounts. lol.
since he’s working at HALO and he will get 20% off, he brought us there for lunch. * we refers to me,maggie, leeanne, and Ian * Thanks! haha. told you never bet with us.

I believe, we are the lamest morons living on earth. So many spontaneous lame things that we cracked out. It seriously make up my day. Even our lecturer said her bad day was make up by our random act. lol.

well, we were given a test that teaches us a lesson that particular day. Learned to stand on the behalf of others, and think how they might feel. There’s something that seems to be habitual to us, but others might be very sensitive over it.
* we are not evil, just, didn’t know *

After lunch, Yonghui came pick me up and met up with Zhiziang, headed to Pyramid for MADAGASCAR 2.

what a impressive tear-jerking comedy, I laugh and cried at the same time. wtf.
I rate 4.5/5.

Oh yea, I got a poslaju.
* i saw your message, just that I am out of credit to reply *

bearbear in wedding gown? fairytale story book? dark chocolate? & lotion?
my fairytale dream had just ended.
dark chocolate no longer my favourite. I need something sweet to sweetened up my life.

you’re treating me like a princess and I treating you like shit? not worth it.

still, I still appreciate all you have done. *smile* The one I love always hurt me, and I always hurt the one that love me.
and so, keep away from me.

- chatted with a friend few days ago.

To him, I would like to say,

“In your life you meet many people. Some you never think about again. Some you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you, and then there are some that you wish you never knew.“
There’re still many angels beside you, & those angels are what we call “true friend”.

oh yea,
I had a nightmare few days ago,
not going to mention bout it, *tsk, bad things*
& now I have got a confession to make :

I love my family.

I love my daddy, thanks for working so hard just to give me a more comfortable environment to stay in. We might not be wealthy, but dad, I already satisfied.
I love my mummy, thanks for taking care of me so well since the day I am born. Thanks for leaving all the good things for us. you nag a alot, but I know, you love me.
all in a sudden, I don’t want to grow up anymore, I just want to be your little girl.

I love my sister. she’s so sweet and nice in heart. she’s my best friend, the one that I share secrets with. i am incomplete without her.
I love my brother. He’s a real bitch. But i admire how loyal he can be to the girl he likes, and how good he is to his friends. perhaps one day, he will be nice to us too.

appreciate the one you love before you lose them.
blah blah blah, I know it;s random. teehee.

Saturday -

You were my favorite mistake.

….

Proudly present you my brand-new costumed-made jail-look-alike cupboard. wtf.

I flipped through some old photo albums when I was tidying up my room.

翻阅相簿时看见了自己小时好很喜欢的那个男孩的相片，但惊觉自己已不记得他的名字了。忽然间无法接受自己如此薄情。也在那一刻明白了，很多事只对当下有着一定意义。就只有只有当下。

也许在哪一天，他，也将成为生命中的另一个某某过客。生命中的路人何其多，人来人往，都是流动的风景。他， 也许只是一个较煞人的一片风景。 需提醒自己别留恋在那，前面肯定还会有更迷人的风景。
要明白多情滥漫的男人不一定爱你，他们要得只是那一迅间的快感与温存。“就只有只有当下”的快感与温存。女生对他们而言就只有当下有意义？让你轻易的调入他们的温柔陷阱后，然后离你而去。之后，他们轻易地回到属于他们的生活里，女生无奈却只能以呆滞的目光看他们离去。

女生如期多情又何苦呢？

人有时要多情，有时要无感。
对值得的人多情，对不值得的事无感。

I got inspired by photos. wtf.

Night,

p/s – got tired very easily these day. wed, i have got two test, but i m exhausted now, gotta go to bed. sigh.

nights, toodles.

i hate this part – PSD

November 19th, 2008 by tziaaa

to be love and to be pampered.
vice versa.

…

My blog was dead for awhile due to my exam.

I had my writing for mass communication paper today, unpredictably, I finished up the paper in about 15 mins? It wasn’t too bad I suppose.

The last part is the part where we are suppose to write a story caption about BARACK OBAMA.
I put OBAMA’S VICTORY as the title. Wanted to write that he is the 1st black president in history, but I didn’t.

I read a article about him few days ago. He isn’t a Black, he’s just a black american & caucasian mix. Only his dad is a black. He doesn’t even know much about his dad. He was raise up by his european mom and granny. Why didn’t we refer him as a european instead of the black since he’s nothing to do with the BLACK. Is it that because he has a drop of black american’s blood in his body and therefore he could never be a “WHITE”? check out bout the one-drop-rule. however, when one is a mix of europian and asian, one will never be refer as Asian. why is it so? * this is what I read from that particular article * It says, if a single drop of ink was accidentally drop into a bowl of filtered water, that bowl of filtered water will remain unclear forever. and that’s why OBAMA is refers as a Black. pretty crazy huh? Does it means that if one make a mistake he/she will be guilty the rest of the life; and nomatter how good/angelic you are, once you make a mistake, you will still be in guilt the rest of your life.

cut the craps, overall, mass com paper, was STILL alright. teehee.

got back my writing for business result yesterday. The highest mark in the whole foundation in arts is 28/40. hmm, mind you, it’s over 40, after converted it’s on 11 marks. I got 22/40, pretty bad, but I am satisfied. at least, I pass. hee. I hate writing for business seriously. & I thought our lecturer is very good in English, but it’s all just konon-nya. My friends refer him as the chui shui master, they told me that he isn’t good in English, is just that he has got the accent. *well, he pronounce times new roman wrongly though* My dear wey herng can also speak with those accents. She can even speaks fluently using indian accent. lol.

Went pyramid yesterday, pass over the perfume to Shengyi. Then, yumcha with adele, jeff and yonghui at Kimgary. She said it’s time for me to get a boyfriend and settle down. lol. I always want a boyfriend, but it’s always the wrong person at the wrong time. I either fall in love and got my heart broken, or broke a awesome one’s heart. Never get it right. “to be love and to be pampered, to love and to be hurt?”-tzia’s theory. lol. Adele and Jeff left after that because Jeff got to go to work. Yonghui and I went yumcha again at WongKok with ahboy, Nic and Lin*i suppose*. Ahboy work as a beverage bouncer at Kimgary. He went to Wongkok and eventually turn into a spy, making out lots of jokes. I should say, he’s crazy yet fun. & He’s kind enough to spend all of us. Thank you.

& I dyed my hair into light light brown.
I brought two box of Loreal’s hair dye that cost me rm70, my aunt dye it for me.

i went to college, people called me lalamui, called me kammou.
The color was exactly what chianwei’s hair color was. *no offence, girl*

I dislike the color.
and under all types of distress and persuasion.

I re-dye my hair.
using HENNA * the natural hair dye * which cost only RM1.50 per packet.

It turns out to be redish brown in color.
& I love the color now.
My friend simply don’t believe that I actually spent only rm3 to re-dye my hair. lol.

tuning to – you are so cold, Mariah Carey.

p/s - SELLING DKNY AT RM150 now. anyone?

November 14th, 2008 by tziaaa

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned that our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

…

Things weren’t as tough as I thought. or is it that I have immune to it ever since I am form 3? I don’t know and I never try to figure it out.

I got in to a serious relationship when I am form 4, and obviously I didn’t get the treatment of a princess. & my ex ended up with my bestfriendS. and that’s when I start to be extremely emotional and that’s when I became so so so soft-hearted. So damm temperamental. yuishhh! I am serious in every relationship after that, but I didn’t get pampered and love like how I used to get before the so called serious relationship? Is it KARMA or is it this world is just too cruel and we just have to face the reality. I am not giving up in relationship, just, taking a break to catch a breath. Enjoy what we have now, appreciation? not now, maybe, till the one who appreciate you appear, on one fine day.

at this very moment, I know the one I need the most is still my friends and of course my family.
a lover? I trust that fate will bring me to him. I just have to wait.

Form 3, I brutally got involved in a relationship with a guy that other people claims he already have a girlfriend which he denied it. Good enough, my wonderful seniors(girls) call me a slut/bitch. Created a profile to shoot me and bitch about me. Wrote ” tzia’s a slut” on the freakin whiteboard right in front of my class. Insulting me right in front my face? It’s so damm tough for a 15 years old girl. I cried as if my family had just passed a way, abuse myself, kept quiet and accept all those shit. How much I wish I could shout out :” how the fuck I know he have got a girlfriend?!”

why the heck do I deserve all those?
I had experience the worst, this time, it’s nothing.

” I think that you’re right.”
” Do what you think is right and with no regret.”

yes, I just want to be who I am, the original me. I just want to smile again.

I’m pretty fine now. Yes, of course I am. because, I have bunch of honeyed friend with me. always so concern bout me and stand on my side.

p/s – I sort of losing the ability, to read your mind. I bet you too. You knew me for so long, but I guess you still don’t know who I really am. I have changed, I know what is wrong and right. But, I am just another normal human, I make mistakes too. so do you, my dear friend.

& my classmates are all simple yet sweet, they might not be able to help, but they are good enough to make me smile from my heart.

lol.

In addition, my sister had grown up, she starts to back me up *emotionally* when I am facing problems. Thanks sis!

p/p/s – I am now selling DKNY APPLE PERFUME (red) for only RM180. * 100% ORI*

tuning to – TALK TO ME

November 12th, 2008 by tziaaa

…..

Love is in the air, I miss the one I used to be too.
everyone is in love EXCEPT for me. Shinyee and so cute together with keryi. Adele is in her sweet love life with jeffrey. Monwei is so pampered by her boy. and the not forgetting the perfect match michelle and joel.

Talking bout the perfect match, do you still remembering how close we used to be? I knew exactly what you are thinking and you knew what’s in mind needless me telling you. I was so strongly objecting when you and him getting together, cause I am scared to lose both of you, my closest friends. You told me things will still be the same, you will still love me as much as you used to do. But seems like the nightmare had came, we have no more common topics and about him, I AM NOT CLOSE TO HIM AT ALL now. damm it. however, I know you still care bout me alot, more than anyone else. get mad bout my photoshoot? I am sorry. I knew it’s my fault this time for not thinking of the consequences that I have to face after posting up those and for making you so worry. I had clear things up & There’s no next time I promise, ILY, still.

yea, fucking consequences I have to face now. but can you fucking people don’t go spam my friends and family’s page? what is it to feel ashamed of? It’s a proper photoshooting session. It’s just my mistake for posting it up. I apologize for my mistake. leave me in peace.

Besides, I am very moody today. I thought I had get over him and had get a new life. Everything seems to be so fine till when I saw him again, I realize things are still the same. Not even a little fade off. Reminisced about the awesome moment we used to have, I knew I still can’t let go. my heart beating extremely fast on the second he appear in front of me. Telling myself, he’s a trash, I deserve a better one. yet, it’s pointless, in my heart I was blaming my friend when didn’t she tell me he’s coming. & when his name appears in my inbox, I actually jump with joy on my bed. thanks God, he will never know, I am a good actress with oscar award, wtf. I seriously need a breakthrough, or maybe, more time. Let the missing get lesser eventually, and hopefully everything is going to fade with the time.

to the other man in my life, it’s unfair. yea, things are never fair though. I was trying hard to get back the feelings i used to have with you in order to get over him. but things do not seems to go so well. I am comparing you and him all the while. I don’t know why the heck am I doing this. You are so much better than him in all aspects, what the hell am I still thinking and uncertain about? I don’t know. I want to get through all these shit, will you held my hand and get me through? I doubt that. Everyone is selfish, that’s human nature. so, fuck it. boy, I need to catch a breath now.

I couldn’t explain why my mood swing so easily. All i know is I have to stop my fucked up fairytale, prince charming and princess princesses dream. It never exist. never! Everything is just a dream and I have to walk up now to continue my journey.And when I am effin down, I hang out with my friends, and it helps 90% of the time. Shin always calm me down. Adele always crack out lame jokes and be by my side to help me get through everything. Mon always offer me hugs. and there’s always michelle with her concern. and many more that I couldn’t list all out. I appreciate all my friends and I am glad to have you people.

college life is too busy, it disallowed me to have even a little free time to think of others things, so many assignments and and exams coming on. and yes, I really start to love my classmates and those at my college, start to see how wonderful those people are. I had been too bitchy to hate them and thought I will never mixed with “those” type of people. Things are totally opposite now, I actually like them pretty much. Like how they being straight forward, love the gossips with them, and adore their lame-mess which most of the time made me laugh like crazy. I appreciate them for filling up color in my college life. thanks people.

I am so wrong and mess’d up now.
I need a new life.

Second serenade – FALL for you
* a wrong song for this moment! *