March 21st, 2008 by tziaaa
Look at this fucked up!
I just rejected him yesterday.
oh.. or maybe I should say I had told him I don’t like him since the very beginning.
But he only realize how much I dislike him after talking to me last night.
…
him : I won’t give up unless you tell me you won’t like me nomatter what.
me : I will NEVER like you nomatter what.
him : Fine lo lidat, I also don’t want be sohai already.
I judge girls by looks. I only want pretty girl.
I don’t know why I will like ” pork chop ” like you.
me : Oh really don’t kao me, don’t like me yea!
him : Yeah la, don’t want d.
Me ah dong want find pretty girls damm easy la!
Girls come to me de.
me : oH REALLY? my fren are pretty but why they don’t get attracted?
him : your friend pretty? All pork chop like you only.
* we talking bout michelle & shinyee*
Eh, that day I go learn driving got a cute & pretty girl look at me le.
me : WTF. You don’t know how to judge only. Oh got girl look at you? really? good then.
him : You not jealous meh? I so good why you don’t like me?
Not pretty la. I like those girls look like doll de.
me : Why the fuck should I jealous? don’t like means don’t like la.
Oh no wonder la. You like those lala de izit? sg.wang alot!
No wonder you say my friend pork chop.
I so ugly why are you still bullshitting here? lol.
him : What the fuck. what lala?
I hate lala la! lol. but those lala girls like to come to me.
If I’m lala. I will also be a damm good looking lala.
me : Oh really? ei. I won’t like you la.
him : Oh fine la. But don’t like sure got reason de what?
me : No means no. Just. I will never like people like you.
him : XXX better?
me : definately!
Mr. I need sleep. bye.
I straight hang up.
OMG. This fucked up just don’t realize.
sad for him.
who is him to judge my girlfriend?
Just because he likes lala?
gosh. I’M NOT LALA. don’t like me.
and fucking perasan thought he is damm good.
& as if is a must for me to fall for him.
He told me he was pretty confident.
FUCK him.
March 18th, 2008 by tziaaa
i cant stand one day more at home.
but, i am not allowed to go out every single day.
i’m so bored.
and had nothing other than online/practice piano to do.
I hope my class would start tomorrow.
sigh.
& to that damm idiot.
be careful of your words,
Friendship can end in a second because of that fucking stupid word.
sorry is not everything.
March 12th, 2008 by tziaaa
D-E-V-A-S-T-A-T-E-D
Yeah. My SPM results sux to the max.
I got 5 1As’.
I got 1As’ for moral, maths,English, history & chinese literature.
1 D for Chemistry, well, I hated the subject. so whatever la.
& B for the rest of the subject.
Very terrible results.
The worst results of my whole damm life.
I confidently thought that I will definitely get A for Chinese & BM.
But.. well, I flung both the subjects.
I only got B for those.
I’m damm freaking disappointed.
My chinese teacher call me. She said she also thought A is a no problem for me.
But well… disappointing!
My 7As’ dream…. kaBOOOSH!!
Gone. sad case.
My parents blame me for the bad results.
I know is my fault. That I should be blame.
but… i got feelings too. Aih.
My dad saw the result & straight go out.
My mom screw me like shit. lecturing me like nobody else business.
& she said she wasn’t lecturing!!!
wtf. well, I can only keep my mouth shut after telling her I had tried my best.
Instead, I had tried my very best.
But she just think I’m fighting back.
She thinks i’m not serious enough towards it!
well… I study hard for history & I score flying colour for that subject.
I thought I can score for my language subjects too.
cause all the while it wasn’t a problem to me.
I never expect to get a B too. I’m disappointed!! just so you know..
and science subject weren’t my subject all the while.
I flung all the while.
I now get B I already feel damm happy.
But my parents wasn’t satisfied though they know I’m a science idiot.
My parents said they wasn’t expecting anyting from me.
But after getting my results, I realize they are the one expecting the most compare to my friends.
I got screw terribly.
My friends had almost the same results as mine, but they are happily enjoying themselves outside now.
While me staying at home got screw & hiding in the room crying like an idiot.
I told my parents I felt stress when..
relatives start to ask bout my results. *my cousin all were straight As’ student*
Parent’s friends start to ask bout it & compare me with their child.
& most importantly I flung my chinese. Aiks.
But oh well.. My mom said that “SMALL KIDS” like me will never have stress.
wtf right? DAMM IT!!!!
DAMM IT!!
I am disappointed enough with my results. But I didn’t get any comfort from my family.
yeah. I still love my parents. I still need them.
but now my friends care bout me much more! I’m sad.
I’m 17!! I’m big enough to think and plan for my future! Arghhh.
I just hope for my parents understand. hmmm.
My result really brings great impact!
I had disappoint my parents.
I promise, I will do it better in my further study!
Promise…
hmm.
My bad bad day I should say. T.T
February 28th, 2008 by tziaaa
There’s lots of weird people on the crazy world.
There’s a girl.
Use my photo in her friendster. Create a new name for me. Telling people that she is the one in the picture. Hooks around with guy. *wtf* Okie, worst come to worst, she start telling people crazy stories. She told people her parents = *my parents* both died of cancer. Brother got accident and pass away. All those cursing lies. She said she got heart problem. Need to do operation very often. Luckily she didn’t ask for donation huh. One of the guy happen to be my friend. and discover her lies.
Today, she added me in her msn & chat with me like nothing happened. I don’t know what should I do. I just act like I don’t know anything. she didn’t show*my picture* that time. Omgosh. How can she curse my family like that.
Fake me, Curse me, curse my family!!!!
I feel like KILLING her.
& I felt like a lost soul now.
damm lifeless.
tuning to alone – Jolin tsai
February 18th, 2008 by tziaaa
A fucked up day. =(
No calls at all as I am waiting like an idiot.
To be honest,
I desperately want you back.
and want to be by my side on that moment.
I tried to talk to you.
but you still don’t get what I mean.
How much I hope you will stay up last night to talk to me.
Instead of that you went to bed and leave me alone.
If I am really that important to you.
I guess I at least deserve one night of yours.
I am like expecting missed call from you when I wake up in the morning.
But nothing.
It’s5.30pm.
When I stop expecting.
you told me you coming over my place as you own me an explanation.
hmmm.
I guess I don’t need that anymore.
I ain’t perfect.
I have too much expectation huh?
i KNOW i’m not even good.
But I know I’m unique.
=)
Please talk craps with me.
I’m trying to get away from serious matter.
I need some ”jack ass” stories.
It makes me laugh. lol.
Better still.
I hope someone do something in “jack ass” in front of me.
It would be pretty entertaining.
okie.
I’m just crapping…
December 25th, 2007 by tziaaa
had been one month one week and one day me & him being together.
and it’s Christmas!!
But i am spending this Christmas alone. wth.
his fault for not planning anything. hmm.
I had not really talk to him for the pass few days.
main reason i had some feeling for a cute guy at my work place.
who I don’t know how he somehow attracted me.
just.. i have some special feeling towards him.
That’s why i call myself a bitch.
however, i realize my stupid boyfriend that is the one always there for me
& the one who care for me the most all the time.
Forgive me for being bad.
Forgive me for not behaving myself.
I promise there’s no second time and I know you are still the one I love.
just give me some time to settle down everything now.
I’m sorry for everything.
Just… give me some time.
I promise to stick with you =)
Cause I know I still love you alot!
Trust me =)
And about my work.
of course it’s fun with someone cute there.
But… one of my supervisor is fucking weird.
She had been bitching bout me.
There’s a guy who talk to me on the phone till 5am.
When she somehow knows about it,
she went to talk to guy.
she told that guy not to fall for me.
she said if fall for me is choosing to die.
and said I’m fucking cheap cause I mix around with all guys.
WTH. WTF!!
She jealous or what.
shit hell, guy come talk to me.
she stare at me.
Before she bitch about me,
i shall ask her to think about herself.
keep touching guys damm good huh??
that’s what a old lady like her doing..
So old still act like a small kid.
fucking naive.
*worst than me by million times lo*
Luckily that guy ignore her,
cause he know me well.
& Luckily she is going away on 31st this month.
ThAt guy too. well.
To be honest I will miss him lots.
Merry Christmas people!!
xoxo
