November 21st, 2010 by tziaaa

我無奈。
我無言。

只有默默的在盛滿水的水盆里寫上一切的不愉快，讓后，把水倒了。
希望不愉快，也會隨水流逝。。

我不知道是否生效，但愿如此吧！

。。。

anyway,

I support kim wei wei!

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September 28th, 2010 by tziaaa

I have got two tix for ARTHUR’S DAY.
(yes, the one that had just passed)

I should have dolled up as black party chic.

& watching MizzNina performaning LIVE on stage..

…with the ever so smooth and milky Guinness Stout.

photo from last year’s Arthur’s Day.

I still remember how much fun I had that night!
& hey, looking at this photo, i started missing my long side fringe. hmmm.

but well, all these did not happened.

simply because i have my last paper on the next morning which is a SATURDAY!
if only UTAR is a lil tad better in those scheduling thingy. T.T

i don’t care, next year Arthurs i will be going for sure!

*sulk99

p.s. - this is just a rant post for that I didn’t make it to Arthur’s Day this year after reading others’ blog posts on Arthur’s Day. gahhhhh!

September 20th, 2010 by tziaaa

一生中稱之好友的多不勝數，但聚聚散散分分合合以后还留下的真的不多。差不多八年了吧？
人來人往，最后留下的還是你。

他們說，朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人。那也還真的是。我的公主小姐脾氣，我的傻頭傻腦，我的固執任性，你都包容下來了。畢業后我們各忙各，有時候很才見一次面， 但是不管多久没见面, 我们都还是老样子, 直話直說大声说话也罷，更不注意仪表，可是永远笑的那么开心，因為我們都習慣了這樣的你我。所谓的好朋友就是这样，不尴尬轻松自然。

八年以來我們都是這樣；
可那天你就那樣走了。

我以為自己不會哭，但當我看到你被背影也走也遠時，我的眼淚一滴一滴不覺的落下， 只能用模糊的視線看你離去。以后誰陪我一起瘋，誰教我做蛋糕，誰陪我出席那些只有你會陪我出席的宴會、慶典。。。。 我沒想到自己原來會如此的想念你，才一離開就開始想念了。

原來我們那些不以為然一起瘋顛的日子﹐現在憶起都是美好回憶。
雖然，不是說再也見不到面了，可是，英國真的太遠了，一年也真的太久了。

你，保重吧!
我會為你禱告的！♥

我不是特地把這里搞得那么憂郁， 但是分離的感覺實在太差！T_T

September 8th, 2010 by tziaaa

We started off with love at first sight. I know, you are someone for me to lean on. & that’s when, we were official. ♥

The starting our relationship wasn’t good though. So many arguments till both us got so sick of it. & So many times, we almost ended this relationship. But, the faith we had in each other holds us back. Slowly, we learned. We know there’s a reason for why both of us are together, it’s fated. We started to learn from our mistakes. Also, like what they say, in a relationship, we have to give and take, and I guess, we did it. & our relationship got so much better.

You told me, I am meant to be pampered because I am your baby princess that you truly love. Whenever I sulk, you will come out with something to cheer me up, so good that I couldn’t resist and smile. Simple words from you are good enough to melt my heart. I love you more than any other and I am falling for you a lil and a lil deeper day by day. & hey, that’s when I thought there really is “happily ever after”, I started to believe there’s still fairytale love story all over again. I thought, we have gone through the tough time.

But, without me realizing, I started to become so anti-social simply because all that I want is to be with you, you’ve got me addicted. I am dismayed at the thought of being abandoned or rejected. I started to care excessively for you and our future. I have so many dreams about you and me. The insecurities lead to terrible possessiveness which is unhealthy. All I know is I want the best for the one I love, and yes, I had never try to accept that, that might not be what you want. I did not realize that, I had invaded your freedom. The more I love you, the further I feel I am away from you. I didn’t know why it is so.

& so, we started to argue so so much again. I would always just STFU even there’s time that you’re at fault and you still yelled at me till I burst into tears, to make sure you wouldn’t leave. Stupid enough, but I know it’s all worth it, thinking of the fact that I might be the culprit of the whole argument. But you did come back, every single time. It’s magical that, just a simple hug from you could just wipe away all the tears on my face. After so many arguments, I finally started to sit down and think, if, I am doing the right thing.

So, I learned to give in. but, we still argued as much or even more. I don’t know if we have exceeded our limit, or, is it me that have been over sensitive, again. I know, you were starting to get to get real sick of it, you no longer came to make me happy even if I sulk. You had even told me that you no longer want me to be your baby princess; you want me to grow up. No more sulking like a kid, no more cuddling like a baby. I cannot accept that, but, I know I have to.

I sobbed for the whole night, without knowing what I should do next. My heart shattered into million pieces, I was devastated. We both chilled for a few hours. You then came and grabbed my hand, apologizing telling me that you know, whatever I did is for your own good. & you would treat me like a baby princess all over again, which means no more scolding and together we will make things better. Your innocent guilty face melts my heart instantly. Baby, I am really glad that you had finally understood. I am really sorry that I have always made my concerns sound so demanding. Come to think of it, I wouldn’t accept it too if I were you. I then stop all those obsessive acts and am now learning to have more confidence in myself, also in our relationship.

Now, things seem to be a little better. One thing is that, I finally accepted the fact that “fairytale love story” had never and will never exist. But, I still do believe in “happily ever after”. People said love at first sight is easy, but when it’s a life time thing, it’d be a miracle – “happy ever after”. Yes, dealing with ups and downs in a relationship is never easy, it depends on how much love is there and how determined you are as it might just take up a life time. It takes time to love and to understand.

Anyhoo, baby and I are now working hard for our “happily ever after”.
I know, we can do it!

Talking about time speaks for love,
here’s a video that I like a lot, and so I decided to share it with all of you.

“On a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you love me?”

you can also watch it here, http://www.timeislove.com.my.
Share your love stories at “Share & Win” now, and you will stand a chance to win a gorgeous SOLVIL et TITUS watch.

Also, you can now share the video with your ‘special one’ to express your thoughts of love. You can do that by going to the url:

http://timeislove.com.my/thematic/my/

by clicking on the ‘Share the love, Share the video’ tab, and composing/drawing your message there to accompany the video that you will send to your ‘special one’

I have done mine, how bout you?

& here’s a preview of it, with video playing at the side of it.
yes, my sketches is animated! Heh!!!

Time is love.
Let’s us all share the loves. ♥

Cheers.

April 3rd, 2010 by tziaaa

愕然發現，人心難測。
要猜透人心，太累了。

真摯的友情已不再，
一切都已被戰略化。

各式各樣的小動作只為討取歡心。
滿腦子只是想著如何擦好每對鞋。

利益當前友情便即刻作廢，
應為得犧牲小你完成大我。

贏家即稱作好朋友，
沒利用價值的即棄。

你知我曉，友情已亮紅燈，厭惡指數也一直在升。
全因戰略化的友情不適合我，我沒辦法玩下去了。

對不起，
我退出。

p.s. – 你不是你認為我在寫的那個人。

February 18th, 2010 by tziaaa

Updated with more fire works photos.

TADAH, this is baby hershey! ♥
i truly believe Hershey will be the most manja bitch ever, like, seriously.

okay, i shall “bitch” more about her later on.

btw, baby Hershey is my valentine present from ego king baby. *lovessss* ♥♥♥
she is just about a month old. so tiny, to an extent that i am so afraid that i might just break her bone.

in this photo, she was actually sleeping on my lap, but i forced her up for a photo.
& that explains why she so looks so mm song. grrrrrrrrrh. hee.

lucky enough, i get to celebrate Valentine’s day with my beloved ego king baby, @ Johor.
because, so happened that both our parents’ hometown are in Johor. *big wide smile*

went on a simple date with the precious one. ♥

added on an artificial specs on baby in this photo, because i didn’t get to have a photo of him in specs. &….

… now you guess what i got for the ego king.

talking bout Valentines, my baby sister received 99 roses. @@
ok, skip that, she is now hand-making valentines present ♥ for her friends.

so nice, meimei, i want to be you friend also. boleh?
so pretty, yes?

Bout Chinese New Year, i celebrated at granny’s house at Yongpeng.
there’s fire crackers, fire works, kong ming deng… etc.

There’s always fireworks marathon going on every year. I don’t have any photos, cause the careless me left the camera in baby’s car. Baby sister caught a few awesome shots, but too bad, she isn’t with me now.

updated: ok, i just got some of the photos from baby sister.

ceremony.

fire crackers.

fire works… imagine a fire works marathon going on for at least 10 mins in a small village like Yongpeng. crazy!

However, i have a photo of uncle putting up “kong ming deng“, which also known as the wishing lantern where people write their wishes on it before having it floating in the air, believing that the higher it goes, the higher the possibilities of your wishes coming true.

On the second day of CNY, attend the second wedding dinner of cousin Samson and Kath ♥.
A rather simple one, but it’s good to have everyone sitting down together.

it isn’t an easy task. my granny has got 14 children, you see?

the girls. it’s really good to see everyone dolled up.
i like it.

and a photo of me and my brother.
trying hard to spam my brother’s photo in every post of mine.

there goes another excuse for me to camwhore. *wicked smile*

So many good food during CNY, “diet” shouldn’t be mentioned during this time.
mom together with a few aunties were the main cook at granny’s place during CNY.

Needless to mention, the food were superb. ♥

Abalone, just isn’t my thing. Ok la, you can say I “mm sek yeh” or just kill me cause, honestly, I somehow find it tastes very my much like Sotong. @@!!

duck mee. this one da pao one.
one of the best in Yong peng.

i love food. i just couldn’t resist it when there’s good food place right in front of me.
that’s why my diet plan goes on years and years, never ending, and will never success. fml.

this is fried meat roll.
one of the strongly recommended must eat dish!

last but not least, i am very happy collecting ang pau right now. hahaha!
& so far, this is my ♥ favorite red pink packets, from my cousin from beijing.

…

鞭炮声此起彼伏,

鬧劇也是如此。

今年的新年，

心情被一些無聊的人，無謂的事給搞砸了。

怎么樣也提不起興來。

我什么也不想要。

只想，平平淡淡，與世無爭的過日子。

此時此刻，我很想哭。

February 11th, 2010 by tziaaa

他們說：“十份微笑，一份真心，九份虛假。”
是現實太過殘忍了，又或是真心其實很渺小。

天真的以為真心真的可填補平日的任性與不好。
真誠地對待身邊的每一個人，看見他們的微笑，感覺很快樂。
后來發現，那看起來大而親切的笑容，其實，全都是虛假的。

我，原來，很可憎。
只是，那些虛假的笑和那唯美的話讓我不知覺。

當心在淌血，假笑，就像一張面具般僵在我臉上。

p.s.- 很多時候，人有時候真的不如狗般重感情。

。。。

♥

Whiskey is finally back at baby’s house!
yes, he wasn’t before these due to some other reasons.

Despite all those, Whiskey has grown up healthily under much good care. i am really glad.
I thought Whiskey had forgotten me because I left him for so long, i am sorry that I left you this long, i didn’t want to!
i really miss you, baby boy!

i am really happy when i see he is more than excited to see me. he shake his tail happily when he saw me. awwwww! & I usually hate dogs that is this hyper, but hell, every move of him seems to be so cute that day! so yea, there’s always an exception, no?  I even make him to chase after me!! crazy!

oh yea, i had a short discussion with friends at uni the other day.
I was telling them I want a pet that is very obedient (as in don’t bite) , loyal, furry, big eyes, and etc….
yea, I always wanted to bring Whiskey back to Kampar but Whiskey is too big for me to put him in my small room.

classmates started to come out with all sort of brilliant ideas…

a: fish la… obedient, big eye
b: cow la… big eye, somemore can become your transporter in kampar.
c: aiya, spider la, quiet, & furry some more….
d: tortoise, tortoise, wouldn’t die so fast. easy to take care.
e: rabbit… but their poo very smelly….
f: just get an electronic dog la you!

very good. they see it as an impossible task for me to own such a pet. ugh…
but when i see Whiskey again the other day, i know he is just like what i want.

baby and I brought Whiskey for a walk at the park near baby’s place. we passed by this house with 2 really fierce dogs that cannot never stop barking. FTL, like, seriously. poor thing, Whiskey practically stopped, and started to shiver. i quickly carry him. & walked a few steps away, i thought i should go get a photo of the big bully dogs then BITCH about them to everyone. (okay, i didn’t do it)

Because, after I passed Whiskey to baby and walked back to the house, Whiskey actually ran towards me, followed me, & he barked a few times at those 2 big bullies. I was freaking shocked! @@ Whiskey was so scared, yet he stayed with me till i walked away from the house. ohhwow, i know i love him!  ♥

I now get to see him twice a week when I got back from Kampar as baby is taking care of him.
I just realize that baby can actually be very patient, especially, towards Whiskey. hee!

♥

this is my baby boy!