February 11th, 2010 by tziaaa

他們說：“十份微笑，一份真心，九份虛假。”
是現實太過殘忍了，又或是真心其實很渺小。

天真的以為真心真的可填補平日的任性與不好。
真誠地對待身邊的每一個人，看見他們的微笑，感覺很快樂。
后來發現，那看起來大而親切的笑容，其實，全都是虛假的。

我，原來，很可憎。
只是，那些虛假的笑和那唯美的話讓我不知覺。

當心在淌血，假笑，就像一張面具般僵在我臉上。

p.s.- 很多時候，人有時候真的不如狗般重感情。

。。。

♥

Whiskey is finally back at baby’s house!
yes, he wasn’t before these due to some other reasons.

Despite all those, Whiskey has grown up healthily under much good care. i am really glad.
I thought Whiskey had forgotten me because I left him for so long, i am sorry that I left you this long, i didn’t want to!
i really miss you, baby boy!

i am really happy when i see he is more than excited to see me. he shake his tail happily when he saw me. awwwww! & I usually hate dogs that is this hyper, but hell, every move of him seems to be so cute that day! so yea, there’s always an exception, no?  I even make him to chase after me!! crazy!

oh yea, i had a short discussion with friends at uni the other day.
I was telling them I want a pet that is very obedient (as in don’t bite) , loyal, furry, big eyes, and etc….
yea, I always wanted to bring Whiskey back to Kampar but Whiskey is too big for me to put him in my small room.

classmates started to come out with all sort of brilliant ideas…

a: fish la… obedient, big eye
b: cow la… big eye, somemore can become your transporter in kampar.
c: aiya, spider la, quiet, & furry some more….
d: tortoise, tortoise, wouldn’t die so fast. easy to take care.
e: rabbit… but their poo very smelly….
f: just get an electronic dog la you!

very good. they see it as an impossible task for me to own such a pet. ugh…
but when i see Whiskey again the other day, i know he is just like what i want.

baby and I brought Whiskey for a walk at the park near baby’s place. we passed by this house with 2 really fierce dogs that cannot never stop barking. FTL, like, seriously. poor thing, Whiskey practically stopped, and started to shiver. i quickly carry him. & walked a few steps away, i thought i should go get a photo of the big bully dogs then BITCH about them to everyone. (okay, i didn’t do it)

Because, after I passed Whiskey to baby and walked back to the house, Whiskey actually ran towards me, followed me, & he barked a few times at those 2 big bullies. I was freaking shocked! @@ Whiskey was so scared, yet he stayed with me till i walked away from the house. ohhwow, i know i love him!  ♥

I now get to see him twice a week when I got back from Kampar as baby is taking care of him.
I just realize that baby can actually be very patient, especially, towards Whiskey. hee!

♥

this is my baby boy!

January 7th, 2010 by tziaaa

有這么一個女生，送了曖昧訊息然后送禮物給一個不再是單身的男生。
男生開始當心自己的女友會發飆，于是開始隱瞞。

訊息，全刪掉。
禮物，說阿姨送的。
電話里的名字，也換了。

紙始終保不住火。她太細心，發現了男生的不對勁。
男生坦誠了，也答應了不會再與那女生聯絡。

可是，男生一次又一次地撒謊。
女友發飆了，但他不再道歉。
任由她哭，她傷心，他也只是置之不理。

她忽然發現他不再是她認識的那一個他了。
不，不是因為那女生, 他是個絕對的好男人，
只是，他已忘了如何珍惜她。

這個他，不是那個真正愛著她的那個他了。
她累了，絕望了，連吵架的力氣都沒了。

她這才發現自己太高估自己了。
原來，那男生，是個遙不可及的夢。

January 1st, 2010 by tziaaa

new year eve.

i was with a bunch of “friends“,
somehow, i felt the emptiness in my heart.

simple action of offering non-alcoholic drink to me melts my heart.
never know someone i rarely know can actually be so thoughtful.

too late till I realize I ain’t belong to any of my “friends”.

btw, it’s already the 7th month. i♥u, still.
i am glad that I have you with me on my toughest time.

what an emo new year eve post. fml.
guess things wouldn’t be like this if I were drinking caramel latte @ Starbucks.

more updates soon.

December 28th, 2009 by tziaaa

你那所謂無心的一句話,
讓我忽然覺得自己不再完整，
也讓我的淚腺破裂把枕頭都哭濕了。

那一刻，你卻忽然出現，
像針線般為我縫補你在我心里留下的傷口。

很佩服自己。
我的心，痊愈得很快。

好像已不再在意是誰那么殘酷無情。
好像已不再在意那實現不了的承諾。
好像已不再在意是誰為我添了傷口。
好像已不再在意到底誰先離開了誰。

因為，我很愛你。

但親愛的，
我的心，也會有墜毀的那一天。

December 28th, 2009 by tziaaa

當你再次把分離的話所了出來， 那一刻，
我的心停止了呼吸，眼淚也填滿了眼眶。

我，無言。

。。。

was very unhappy last night, but i shan’t let things go worst.
everyone loves present, no? and looking back at all these, cheer me up a lil.

so yea, my christmas present!

Forrero Rocher gummies from the ever so sweet lil sister. she surprised me much!
& The Body Shop product gift pack from mom, and maybe, dad? so thoughtful, as mine is already finishing.

very pretty ginger bread man from Fred.
It really tastes like ginger, and I thought it tastes like some of those choc cookies. FML.

yes, i hate ginger.
but i love them as they are all very pretty! lol.

oversized Lollipop and white “LAK MOU GONG ZAI” from fred.
thanks, i like it. who cares whether it looks LAK MOU cause i am happy as it’s from you.

just that, i didn’t know how to show it! ugh.

& something from Fred’s mom and auntie. ♥

last but not least, chio accessories from kehui.
& Starbucks planner from shinyeee, oh girl, you never know how much I wanted it!

& these is part of the things i prepared for my family, fred, and my close friends.
you people just have to like it laaaa, i have been cracking my brain thinking of what to get!

all i wish is to see the smile on you people’s face!

another thing is, i dyed my hair. ^^

brown, it is.
but, it isn’t that obvious over here. hmmm.

yes, i chopped off my slightly longer fringe again.
I guess I am now used to short fringe.

November 11th, 2009 by tziaaa

我可不可以不勇敢。

因為你，
我接受了無數的考驗，
我接受了無數的眼神，
我得了，無數的傷害。
也得了，無數的疼愛。

你給的愛是我目前的推動力。
但，當那愛平衡不了你所給的傷害時。。。

將會是我跟你道別的那一天。
但圣主，那一天，能不能不到來。

November 11th, 2009 by tziaaa

將傷口包扎，以為那樣就不疼了。
笑著從新面對新的開始。

他回來了，一切不是應該好好的嗎？
但為何我未感到愉快，仍然感到悲傷。

后来發現那一次又一次的離去已讓我遍體鱗傷，
我需要時間復原。

咬緊牙根，堅信著那遍體鱗傷的我也能擁有幸福。
是的，也許我真的有用不盡的勇氣與堅持。

愛情，讓我勇敢了。