December 10th, 2009 by tziaaa

Rushed down to Kampar & got all the way back to KL again this morning, just to attend a 10 mins consultation session. *geram. My adviser insisted that he has to see me first before he could help me to update my student profile, otherwise, I would not be able to register for next semester. How “kind” of him? How much I wish my adviser to be someone else, for instant, mel’s and shas’s advisers. At least, save them from all these craps, theirs are done just through a an email. ugh!

Thanks, mom for fetching me. and the lil sister for accompanying. They somehow have the abilities to make thing seems to be “not-so-bad”. Happy to say, the journey was quite fun with both of them, it was full with laughter.

There’s lightning and thunder when we reached home, but ironically, no rain.
at the same time, Elton text me, and ask for out for photoshooting.

It was sort of drizzling when he picked me up. I prayed to Lord that it wouldn’t rain.
& Amen Lord, it really didn’t rain. The weather was amazing. Not sunny, but bright enough.

this is the first outdoor photo shoot session that I did not sweat throughout the whole thing. awesome!

elton teo, we had a stress free photo shooting session.
as in like, I was basically jumping and playing around while he did the shooting.

never had so much fun doing it.

some of the spot that where we did the photoshooting:
you may start guessing where I did my photo shoot.

&  sneak peek, taken by Elton using my baby G10. ♥

I can’t wait to get all those photo shoot photos from him! ♥
but he has got so much work to do, maybe I should bribe him with my oh-so-cute smile.

teehee!

October 8th, 2009 by tziaaa

我很壞，我真的很壞。

那一天，我一時興起和他談起了我的相機夢。 買部新相機吧， 他說。
我起了嘴，因為，我沒那個能力。 他笑了笑，摸了摸我的頭說，相機就由他來買吧！
原先，我不肯。說什么要自己付的，最后，卻被自己的購物狂病態給整了。
他沒說什么，還為我添了幾雙漂亮的鞋子。我笑了，他也笑了。

后來，因某些原因， 逼得他暫時沒辦法為我買先那部相機了。
他很內疚，說要遲些些才能賣給我了。
我卻無緣無故地哭了， 對所有事也都提不起勁。
我以為，他會搖著頭，說我不諒解他。
出乎意外的，他向我道歉，說什么他讓我失望了。
為了讓我開心起來，還帶我去看笑片。

反而是我，沒給他任何正面反應。

回到家以后想想，我忽然感到很慚愧。
他，對我從不會不舍得什么的，只要我喜歡。
他，的心情定于我的喜怒哀樂，只要我快樂。
他，了解我的任性與蠻不講理，只要我滿意。

能像他如此待我的會有幾個？
我，也該珍惜了吧？

想說，寶貝，謝謝你說給的一切。
我很幸福。

-photography credits to SK-

August 18th, 2009 by tziaaa

“情人間常說：「我對你不再有愛，都變成了習慣了。」

其實，習慣並沒有什麼不好。
它讓你自然的去做。
自然的去想他，自然的去愛他。

當你已經不覺得自己在付出時，
也許你覺得，你己開始習慣，有他陪伴在你的生命中，
那才是真的愛。” - Ivan K

閑著沒事， 開始閱讀別人的部落格， 而偶然發現這一篇文章，更被他所寫的這一段給吸引了。
想對他正在質疑我的愛的他說：「也許我對你不再有愛，都變成了習慣了。」

我習慣了早晨起來有你的短訊，
我習慣了對你說我有多想念你，
我習慣了有你陪著我一起發呆，
我習慣了有你牽著我的手逛街，
我習慣了你那樣傻傻地看著我，
我習慣了在睡前聽聽你的聲音，

我已習慣有你。愛你，也成了我戒不掉的習慣。

你質疑我的愛， 我慌了， 我累了，我無力和你爭。

我問是否我不夠好，你說你要改變我。那一刻，我頹廢了。
人何來的完美。 我不完美，你也是如此，但我接受了，為何你不能。
和你在一起，不是一兩年的兒游戲， 是一輩子的事，難道說這一輩子我都不能做回我自己了嗎？

你問我為你做了些什么？ 你不提，我也忘了。
但仔細想想，好像，不少。至少，對你的一切承諾我都遵守了。
只是，你的眼睛被疑惑給蒙住了，你什么都看不見了。
反倒是你，一次又一次的食言了，我什么都沒說。只是，心在淌血。

是的，我不開心了； 天也下起雨了。
但我相信，雨后有晴天，一切都會好起來的。

=）

photography credits to kevinhan

July 11th, 2009 by tziaaa

我，不開心了。
卻忘了怎么流淚哭泣，只會，傻傻的笑。

我有爸爸那嚴肅卻溫馨的愛；
我有媽媽包容我的淚水與任性；
我有妹妹在我的臉上劃上笑容；
我有弟弟和我分享那愛的喜悅；
我有他給予我多一份童話般的愛；

該快樂了吧？該幸福了吧？
曾經以為上天把愛全都留給了我。
在我想要與你分享時，發現，上天把你給沒收了。

那一刻，我的心哭了。

曾經一起暢談心事的你、我、她已不再了。
同樣的地方，同樣的人，卻因不同的時間，而有著不同的感受。
此刻此時，我們顯得莫明的陌生，也多了一份虛為。
壓抑著我的情緒，很虛偽的，我笑了。

忽然發現，我們之前的約定，似乎都已消失了。
記得你說過，即使我們不是同年同月同日生，
卻說好了要同年同月同日完成我們的人生大事，
你說過就忘了的話，我都牢牢記住了。

我努力了，也很想繼續努力下去，但還是會無力。
十年的友情，我留不住了。 慶幸的是，我曾今擁有過。

人生，似乎，真的沒有完美。

photography credits to kevinhan.

June 30th, 2009 by tziaaa

i love this candid shoot of mine.

1. my classmates and I have had a little group discussion this afternoon. Anyhow, my friend Sash had randomly started a conversation about Michael Jackson, and the worst part was Andrew called me a dumb blonde because I always thought that MJ bleached his skin, till Sash told me that it was because he has skin disorder that destroys the pigmentation of the skin which call vitiligo.

2. michael jackson is a legend, yes, he definitely is. R.I.P, MJ.

3. i got my photoshoot photos from kevinhan & sky.

4. if you realize, I changed my blog header.

5. liquor made me went insane.

6. finally met up with my long lost girlfriends, michelle, monwei & shinyee after so long.

first photo of me & hsien.

7. i have no time for a proper update due to tons of assignments.

oh yea, sungkai klah hot spring was awesome, will update bout it soon.

cheers.

June 24th, 2009 by tziaaa

” Do you have time for a short photoshoot session at kampar? ” ,
a text message from photographer terrence.

& since my class ends early that day, I agreed to go for the shoot.

a photo of the indoor shoot. waiting for more from the photographer.

sensuality of spring? me likey.

supposed to go for a session of outdoot photoshoot.
but ugh, my stomach ache, & plan cancelled.

I always want to have an outdoor photoshoot session at the side of the lakes in kampar.
There’s a beautiful lake garden at westlake, but sigh, next time, perhaps.

cheers. till then.

June 6th, 2009 by tziaaa

以前总以为心最疼时非属自己受伤害时。

后来发现，心痛得快停止呼吸的那一刻竟是看见心爱的人落寞的那一刻。

没办法假装坚强，没办法当作什么事都没发生过，

你若无其事的强颜欢笑让我更心疼。

不再渴望些什么，不再奢求些什么，不再需要些什么，

只要，少少幸福的祝福。

p.s. - 难道说要感觉幸福，就得承担这一切的悲伤吗？

photography credits to SKY.