February 27th, 2010 by tziaaa

“讀了你的blog，最近很快樂吧， 這么幸福？”
我什么都沒說，只報以微笑。

其實最近很不開心，被很多很多的事困擾。
但也許，幸福真的是由自己決定的。

很多時候在你看似擁有世上最美好的一切時卻感到莫名的巨大悲傷；
卻在絕望時看見你那一直收藏著的那記憶盒里所發出的美麗的光芒。

那一瞬間，我覺得也許我真的沒必要把自己逼向死角去。
記憶盒里的美麗記憶讓我嘴角上揚也給了我勇氣去面對生命中的所有挑戰。

真心感謝出現在我記憶盒里的每一個人。♥

February 23rd, 2010 by tziaaa

幸福，不需要你死命將它保住。
幸福，不需要你拼命追地求它。

學會領悟便能感覺到那所謂的幸福。

家人，讓我很幸福。

天天都能喝到那媽媽親自煮的湯，所以感覺幸福。
媽媽永遠都把好吃的夾到我碗里，所以感覺幸福。
媽媽每晚替我蓋那被我踢走的被，所以感覺幸福。
爸爸努力工作讓我們不為三餐愁，所以感覺幸福。
爸爸盡了全力讓我們享有最好的，所以感覺幸福。
能博取那嚴肅的爸爸的一個笑容，所以感覺幸福。
爸媽讓我知道家是永遠的避風港，所以感覺幸福。
妹妹硬挣着惺忪睡眼陪我開夜車，所以感覺幸福。
妹妹用第一份工錢買小禮物給我，所以感覺幸福。
弟弟放下壞脾氣和我們談天說笑，所以感覺幸福。

親愛的，讓我很幸福。

親愛的不惜奔波百多公里只为了見見我，真幸福！
傷心時親愛的會想盡辦法讓我破涕為笑，真幸福！
親愛的說信任我保護我愛我是他的使命，真幸福！
能和親愛的一起在挫折中一直學習成長，真幸福！
可以花盡心思細心為親愛的準備小禮物，真幸福！
可以在和親愛一起時彼此完全坦誠自我，真幸福！
親愛的牽我的手時都會捉的牢牢緊緊的，真幸福！
親愛的看著我真誠的告訴我他娶定我了，真幸福！

就連身邊的人偶爾的問候，
與朋友們合時的關心都讓我很幸福。

這些是一直存在在我生活里的幸福。
他們一直都在，一直都讓我很幸福。

只是，我們習慣了，
認為那幸福是理所當然的，
而忽略了它。

從今天開始，
我們都要幸福。

這是我們的約定。 ♥

January 2nd, 2010 by tziaaa

2009.

Everything seems to be equally bad good on 2009. there’s up and down, roller coaster liked, everyone are the same, they said. i don’t know how true is it, but at least, mine is so. on 2009, i had the best and the worst.

okay, if you stuck a gun on me, and force me to tell what’s the worst part of mine on 2009. I would say, relationship, with friends.

we will the best friends forever, that’s our promise when we’re in high school. We are now in uni, living on a very different lifestyle, and there’s when we lost the promise. something significant has missing, I have forgotten when i last shared my emotions with them .our friendship is long over-due. i miss you all, girls. yes, this year i had lost a few of my dearest old friends, and gain a few new one. Many of the new faces i met but I don’t call them my friends, maybe, they have never count me as one of them too. hmmm. of course, there’s still a few to appreciate ♥, and i am glad. I am looking forward for a better friendship on 2010.

family.♥ Everyone of us seems to be having a different personality, but there’s something that’s similar in us which keep the bond so strong. The love, it is. I love my mother, she is getting more and more tech-savvy, she read my blog, and my twit this year. I think that’s when she started to understand me more, and then, the generation gap got closer. my dad is still as strict, i would say i were pretty unsatisfied with his action early this year, but mom psycho-ed me. i started to understand him a lil more, and get slightly not so rebellious. lol. my sister, as sweet as usual, i know my secrets is save with her, oh, my cash too! my brother wise, we argued slightly lesser only because I am in Kampar most of the time. wtf. & he now loves the girlfriend more than anyone of us. FOL. as a conclusion, I learned to appreciate their existence and not to take them for granted. I don’t want to regret only when it’s already too late.

love. i fell for someone in the middle of the year. He left me with a broken heart. Till someone ♥ came in to my life, and guided me through the way back into love. ♥ Still,there’s up and down in a relationship. We are as stubborn, and he can be really mean when the anger and ego came into the way. We used to argue 6 days in week, till, even my mom couldn’t stand it and ask us to stop arguing. lol. Times has been really bad till we have have to declare it as the end for millions of times because he is tired of those arguments and I am tired of holding back . It isn’t an easy word, but it still came out from him. Guess, you know how shitty the situation is. however, things are getting better now. at least, noone is leaving noone anymore. Enduring, it is. i love you laaaa!

financial, wise. I have got a job this year, so stop accusing me using other’s money. i have been working till today, and hopefully it goes on till forever. ha. My boss is TimonthyTiah from nuffnang, so yea!  ♥ Nuffang! I am now way to lazy to get my ass out to work. those painful working experience of standing in heels for hours, NO MORE, bye, ha!

as for my studies, it was really equally good bad throughout the year. & seriously, Kampar is the worst place i have ever been, the boredom can really kill me. That’s is a hell big sacrifice i did for my studies this year. fml. Anyway, i will be getting my results real soon, wishing for a good start for 2010.

last but not least, i curled my hair on 2009. for the first time for my entire life! gahhhh!

& now 2009 is already a past, i shall look forward and go on with my journey of life wishing it to be a better one.
good bye 2009, and hello, 2010.

December 28th, 2009 by tziaaa

你那所謂無心的一句話,
讓我忽然覺得自己不再完整，
也讓我的淚腺破裂把枕頭都哭濕了。

那一刻，你卻忽然出現，
像針線般為我縫補你在我心里留下的傷口。

很佩服自己。
我的心，痊愈得很快。

好像已不再在意是誰那么殘酷無情。
好像已不再在意那實現不了的承諾。
好像已不再在意是誰為我添了傷口。
好像已不再在意到底誰先離開了誰。

因為，我很愛你。

但親愛的，
我的心，也會有墜毀的那一天。

December 1st, 2009 by tziaaa

browsing through our old photos, wanted to make you a card. but, things didn’t go right. i failed.
still, looking through those photo of us brought our memories to live.

from the first day I met you till we got together, not long, but those memories are precious. I remember your golden retriever hair which I thought you look really good in it, till, you chopped off your hair and dyed it black. I got very very much in love with your short black hair. I remember how much I felt I was loved, when you stay back at M’sia just for me, and came all the way to Kampar just to pick me up. After spending some time together, i realize, you love me, just because you do and have got no other intention. I know, you are someone for me to lean on.& there’s when, we were official.

The starting our relationship wasn’t good though. You was so ego, and I was so stubborn. Toleration never exist in our dictionary. So many arguments till both us got so sick of  it. & So many times, we almost had this relationship ended. but, the faith of us in each others hold us back. slowly, we learned. We know there’s a reason for why both of us are together, it’s fated.

We started to learn from our mistakes. You are still ego, and I am still as stubborn. But, toleration started to exist. There’s still arguments but things got better and we got closer after every arguments. We learned and promise to do those we promised. It like, we started to fall for each other all over again each time. Also, like what you say, in a relationship, we have to give and take, and I guess, we did it now. & we started to realize, we are both irreplaceable.

Driving down to Kampar every week isn’t easy, but still, you do, just because you want to see me. I am happy, very happy, i wanted to tell you how damm happy am I every time I see you. But, words just went down to the bottom of my heart when you are around me. I guess, I am just a lil too shy. I remember those time when I sulk, you will come out with something to cheer me, so good that I couldn’t resist and smile. The first time we went to Genting theme park together, i sulk that you left me for roller coaster, you then brought me to those con-man fun fair, won a few soft toys to me, just to see me smile again. Also, whenever I cried or breakdown, you will always be there for me without failed. Not forgetting, those breakfast you prepared for me. It’s total ♥. Nevertheless, those surprises and presents given by you, are all priceless. So great that they shan’t be labeled with price.

You told me, I am mean to be pampered because I am your princess that you truly love. Simple words from you are good enough to melts my heart. You later on brought me to meet your family. They treated me so well, that I felt so pampered. and boyfriend, you are the first that my mom acknowledged and approved. hmmm, like yea. I know she likes you too.

Despite all my mistakes, my flaws and those disappointment I gave, I love you more than any others and I am falling for you a lil and a lil deeper day by day. & baby, missing you has become a habit of mine. i just couldn’t kick this habit away.

i love you. ♥

last but not least, happy 6th month anniversary, my precious one.

November 11th, 2009 by tziaaa

我可不可以不勇敢。

因為你，
我接受了無數的考驗，
我接受了無數的眼神，
我得了，無數的傷害。
也得了，無數的疼愛。

你給的愛是我目前的推動力。
但，當那愛平衡不了你所給的傷害時。。。

將會是我跟你道別的那一天。
但圣主，那一天，能不能不到來。

November 11th, 2009 by tziaaa

將傷口包扎，以為那樣就不疼了。
笑著從新面對新的開始。

他回來了，一切不是應該好好的嗎？
但為何我未感到愉快，仍然感到悲傷。

后来發現那一次又一次的離去已讓我遍體鱗傷，
我需要時間復原。

咬緊牙根，堅信著那遍體鱗傷的我也能擁有幸福。
是的，也許我真的有用不盡的勇氣與堅持。

愛情，讓我勇敢了。