appreciation

记得我跟你提过的珍惜吗？

。。。

IMPORTANT ANNOUCEMENT

my final exam is finally over.

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When I am having my exam, I can’t wait to finish up all my paper. & I had plenty of plans on my head. Now. My final exam is over. but I ain’t excited as I thought I will.

partially because, michelle and shinyee is now having their exam mode on.
craps, is like, right after mine. del, mon, and kehui, please tell me you are free.

& this was yesterday :

after exam went to pyramid meet up with jeff and michlee.

jeff’s cousin, Justin, “studying” @ cut above, and so I went over to him and he helped me to trim my fringe a little bit. ;)

i called michlee out, no other reason, just want to see her right after my exam.
and make sure she’s fine. she left awhile later.

walk around with jeff and camwhore a little.

oh yea, he wants me to mention how handsome he is.
so yea, the charming vain ass fecth me home.

rest awhile, and cheok came fecth me out. yum cha at station one.

I look like some ghost that lack of nutrients with terrible eyes begs and dark circle.
and yet, he kept shooting me with his dslr. gone. seriously.
he said he going to post it up on his blog.

I said :” gone la my image if you do like this.”
he said :” uh? u got image one meh?”
and also, he kept reminding me how fat I am. wth.

reach home. while later, I start my sleeping marathon.
I woke up on 2.30pm today. and start rotting. cause I have no plan.

alright, & these are my plans after exam that I planned during my exam :

– finish up the stacks of books I bought the other days.
which now sounds like a mission impossible to me now.

– go over to KAMPAR to have a look of my new campus and find a place to rent with friends.
but, kawan-kawan-ku, bila huh?

– take my driving license.
when I thought of the fact that I have to study my undang, I feel like giving up.
& Ivan, macam mana?

– exercise everyday, and get myself sweat out.
haha, we shall see.
I had been slacking a lot on sports.
and fats are all coming back. sticking on me like some kind of super glu. ish!

Certainly, I have plans, but those are just only plans that I planning to do. but for today, I am not going to do any of those. no idea why. moodless + laziness struck, perhaps.

going for squash with dad later, hopefully.

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对于我上一篇文章，弟弟有话说。

奇怪的是，我一向以来都跟他合不来。

没想到却被他完全说中。吓！

“一個人並不寂寞。

寂寞的是，一個人時的思念。

而習不習慣一個人的生活並不重要。

就算妳習慣了一個人，如果讓妳選擇，妳要一個人嗎？

一個人並不會寂寞，如果沒有思念。我無法抗拒寂寞，也無法去接受。

因爲我不喜歡寂寞，我只會選擇不去思念，不去挂念。而不是從自己的寂寞裏，找樂趣。

一個人可以很墮落，也可以活得很精彩，但我的遙控器，不是我自己。

我把遙控器交到了幾個人的手中，讓他們操控着我的喜怒哀樂。

不爲什麽，只因爲我找不到為我自己而活的理由，所以我為他們而活。

因爲他們對我很重要。

人的一生中，一定會有對自己重要的東西。

不管是朋友、家人、又或者是自己的另一半，對妳重要的，一定要牢牢的抓住。

然後，試着在他們人生的舞臺上，飾演着一個重要的角色。

一個人的生活是孤單的。

對妳重要的家人，

還有朋友，

以及你愛的人，

還有那個帥氣的弟弟（開玩笑的= =），

好好地珍惜他們吧。

別等到他們都真的離開妳了，才去後悔。”

是的，如果有的选，我不要一个人。

我其实我無法抗拒寂寞，也無法去接受。只是硬撑。

对，我的遥控器不是我自己。

弟弟说：“我的遙控器是曾傑程、李明劍，以及儸子坤。

當然也包括了那個很會嗆人的周大山。

儸曉雨也是。”

那我呢？除了那还没出现/或已离去的“他”。。。

好友与家人，就是我心情的遥控器了吧。

对，就是这样。他们对我真的很重要。

弟弟没说我还没发现，我的心情真的不是由我操控。。

谢谢啦，我那帅气的“臭”弟弟。 ；）

p/s – i need a new header, desperately.

tuning into epik – fallin remix