comtemporary
November 14th, 2008 by tziaaa
I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned that our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.
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Things weren’t as tough as I thought. or is it that I have immune to it ever since I am form 3? I don’t know and I never try to figure it out.
I got in to a serious relationship when I am form 4, and obviously I didn’t get the treatment of a princess. & my ex ended up with my bestfriendS. and that’s when I start to be extremely emotional and that’s when I became so so so soft-hearted. So damm temperamental. yuishhh! I am serious in every relationship after that, but I didn’t get pampered and love like how I used to get before the so called serious relationship? Is it KARMA or is it this world is just too cruel and we just have to face the reality. I am not giving up in relationship, just, taking a break to catch a breath. Enjoy what we have now, appreciation? not now, maybe, till the one who appreciate you appear, on one fine day.
at this very moment, I know the one I need the most is still my friends and of course my family.
a lover? I trust that fate will bring me to him. I just have to wait.
Form 3, I brutally got involved in a relationship with a guy that other people claims he already have a girlfriend which he denied it. Good enough, my wonderful seniors(girls) call me a slut/bitch. Created a profile to shoot me and bitch about me. Wrote ” tzia’s a slut” on the freakin whiteboard right in front of my class. Insulting me right in front my face? It’s so damm tough for a 15 years old girl. I cried as if my family had just passed a way, abuse myself, kept quiet and accept all those shit. How much I wish I could shout out :” how the fuck I know he have got a girlfriend?!”
why the heck do I deserve all those?
I had experience the worst, this time, it’s nothing.
” I think that you’re right.”
” Do what you think is right and with no regret.”
yes, I just want to be who I am, the original me. I just want to smile again.
I’m pretty fine now. Yes, of course I am. because, I have bunch of honeyed friend with me. always so concern bout me and stand on my side.
p/s - I sort of losing the ability, to read your mind. I bet you too. You knew me for so long, but I guess you still don’t know who I really am. I have changed, I know what is wrong and right. But, I am just another normal human, I make mistakes too. so do you, my dear friend.
& my classmates are all simple yet sweet, they might not be able to help, but they are good enough to make me smile from my heart.
lol.
In addition, my sister had grown up, she starts to back me up *emotionally* when I am facing problems. Thanks sis!
p/p/s - I am now selling DKNY APPLE PERFUME (red) for only RM180. * 100% ORI*
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November 15th, 2008 at 12:49 am
Cherlin~
Ya know arh.. when i see ur friend(guy) do that pose..
Reminds me of my secondary 2's guys classmate..
We last time play alot of things while teacher not coming for teaching session..
Alot of things played..
Like do some weird actions while walk thru the corridors… up and down..
or.. SM :X of coz guy with guy de la..
That victim so poor.. kena sebat by belt >.n"
P/S : my reply comment from ill-tempered ada putus ka? I forgot cannot use the symbol leh -.-"
Talkin bout ur blog post today.. juz take the ex-es to be an experience for better future life =)
We(blog friend) know u can do so pretty soon. If u realli want to smile again.. try watch those i recommended u before from friendster if havent watched =D
Well.. real life's i think u always the happy 1 that every close to u care about u..
Like ur sis..
Giv those stuff a break ba.. i knew a friend from damansara before, she got similar case like urs.. but she wasnt able to recover..
thus, her parent sent her to australia and study there with new life(currently at UK liao)
Its not easy to be stay cool after such stuffs happens, but u have made it right? =3
Keep it up gurl.. world.. KL so big, alot will come and u can "choose" and "expel" LOL..
Its not KARMA.. it just u met someone who realli not "the one" at the wrong timing i guess..
Err.. did i typed too long? @.@"
Sowie~~ n-n"
November 15th, 2008 at 1:55 am
hi, ur DKNY perfume are ” EAU DE TOILETTE or EAU DE PARFUM ” ?? ^^
November 15th, 2008 at 2:08 am
hello . ^^ ur perfume are “EAU DE PARFUM or EAU DE TOILETTE ” ? let me know ya
November 15th, 2008 at 11:13 am
yaoyao - my classmate? he’s always like this. sodomizing is normal in my class. lol. but never try SM before la.. haha.. yea, i m giving it break. I m strong enough =)I do believe in KARMA though.
mush - it’s EAU DE PARFUM. =)
November 15th, 2008 at 2:44 pm
so the perfume is for girls?
November 15th, 2008 at 7:59 pm
thx , Rm180 cheaper den outside?
November 15th, 2008 at 11:13 pm
Karma? Just think that the God want to give you a test. You will have a better life if you pass the test… You might feel better if you think in that way…Don’t know is it work to you, but it it is work on me…
(^-^)
November 16th, 2008 at 1:27 am
Well KARMA thingy.. i wish it doesnt reflect completely on one's actions >.<"
College life is not like secondary lur… our time different ma..
Not hard, not that tension..
Well.. my own coursemate also did those things back when we still together de ler..
But still.. not "Chi Kek" like secondary 2 time =3
Yea, i belif u very strong to fend off those "bad" one =D
And hor.. this pic for ur comment response.. nice wutt~
keep ur mood up~ and good luck in ur study!
"Be happy,merry and smile always" =)
Yao~
November 16th, 2008 at 9:05 am
so can i have his contact? since u already knew him
thx lots
November 16th, 2008 at 9:41 am
nickmanz - yea, it’s for girls. but my friend(guy) is using women’s perfume =)
mushbee- yea, definitely.
siying - how if you fail the test?
yaoyao - i got crazy secondary classmates and insane college mate. but both are just so cool =) *smile*.
lin29 - ern. not so good, i can’t simply gives out ppl number la.
November 16th, 2008 at 2:38 pm
hehe alright.. if i take 8 will be cheaper la? haha.. how many stock u have first n other brand like CK u have?
November 16th, 2008 at 4:53 pm
mush bee - 8? i need to check whether i still have that much. ern. if you take 8 i can give 150. i don’t have others, oni this one I so ngam got stock.
November 16th, 2008 at 11:11 pm
8 to do x-mas present ma =) n also my fren wanted too if get cheap , hm..too bad only this u have ! T.T btw u let me know how many stock u have..oh anyway,ur job selling this?
peace, =)
November 16th, 2008 at 11:35 pm
mushbee- drop me ur msn if possible. and, ern, confirm with me how many u want 1st.
November 17th, 2008 at 2:40 am
Well,its me again,i’ve viewed for quite a long time on your blog,but just managed to drop comment recently,hehe…well well,i think you should do what you think that it is right,a true friend will always supports whats in your mind and whats your choice…^^ just be yourself…
November 17th, 2008 at 8:20 am
T3, this is the first time i read through your blog, and with all due respect, I believe is too young when you are in F4 to be in serious relationship. I was exactly like you when I was in F4, falling in love was the best moment of my life, but i never realise i was inviting trouble and regrets. The age was too young as both party wasnt mature (even when we say we are). Only when I grows up, I started to realise how foolish I am to take (thought) it seriously. There are aplenty of nice trees, sun, moon and etc to see and experience out there.
There’s a saying, Yesterday was a past, tomorrow is called future and today is a gift; thats why it’s call present. So cheer up and dont let your past ties you down. Is this battle of life, you are at the losing end when you let your past shadows you. So, walk and continue walking. The best part is, there’s so many ppl around you willing to walk with you, which some already doing so.
And one more, I dun believe in Karma. To me, everything happens for a reason. The reason you’ve always failed when you are serious is not karma but it’s because your heart tells you to be serious when the other party is not. Hence, its not karma. We are the one who decide out destiny. Life is a piece of white cloth, when you’re born, your parents draw some picture, when you’re a teen, both of your draw some picture, and when you are an adult, you draw your own picture. So, there’s still many space left, dun look back at what’s drawn, you only look back as reference to enable you to draw a better one, so… ultimately, its you who draw.
So cheer up! Even I may not know who you are, but I’ve walked a longer road. Ive seen many like yourself. They thought they have reach end of the road, but in actual fact, they never realise there’s a better road next to them.
Cheerio!
November 17th, 2008 at 5:39 pm
Hi Tzia. Thanks for adding me in your friendster. But somehow i still unable to access to your friendster. please enable me. thanks.
November 17th, 2008 at 5:43 pm
erm okay.. haih how bout his e mail address? tat will be safe enough for u right? haha
msn, or normal e mail will be fine
thanks
November 17th, 2008 at 10:53 pm
alright… man_childz@hotmail.com - msn..
i confirm with u on msn yea ..
thx lotz
November 20th, 2008 at 8:27 am
banana - yea. I have faith in my friend. I love being who I am too.
nicholas - but no regret la. since then. I start being more serious in relationshp. yea, life is just too short for us to look bak and missed out the future. Karma, maybe you’re right, but, i just do believe in it. thanks for droppin such a long comment. truly appreciated. *smile*
kim - ern, you are?
lin29 - go to friendster and search for shinchan photo shinchan. or maybe you can search for it in google.
mushbee - i added u =)