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Love is in the air, I miss the one I used to be too.
everyone is in love EXCEPT for me. Shinyee and so cute together with keryi. Adele is in her sweet love life with jeffrey. Monwei is so pampered by her boy. and the not forgetting the perfect match michelle and joel.
Talking bout the perfect match, do you still remembering how close we used to be? I knew exactly what you are thinking and you knew what’s in mind needless me telling you. I was so strongly objecting when you and him getting together, cause I am scared to lose both of you, my closest friends. You told me things will still be the same, you will still love me as much as you used to do. But seems like the nightmare had came, we have no more common topics and about him, I AM NOT CLOSE TO HIM AT ALL now. damm it. however, I know you still care bout me alot, more than anyone else. get mad bout my photoshoot? I am sorry. I knew it’s my fault this time for not thinking of the consequences that I have to face after posting up those and for making you so worry. I had clear things up & There’s no next time I promise, ILY, still.
yea, fucking consequences I have to face now. but can you fucking people don’t go spam my friends and family’s page? what is it to feel ashamed of? It’s a proper photoshooting session. It’s just my mistake for posting it up. I apologize for my mistake. leave me in peace.
Besides, I am very moody today. I thought I had get over him and had get a new life. Everything seems to be so fine till when I saw him again, I realize things are still the same. Not even a little fade off. Reminisced about the awesome moment we used to have, I knew I still can’t let go. my heart beating extremely fast on the second he appear in front of me. Telling myself, he’s a trash, I deserve a better one. yet, it’s pointless, in my heart I was blaming my friend when didn’t she tell me he’s coming. & when his name appears in my inbox, I actually jump with joy on my bed. thanks God, he will never know, I am a good actress with oscar award, wtf. I seriously need a breakthrough, or maybe, more time. Let the missing get lesser eventually, and hopefully everything is going to fade with the time.
to the other man in my life, it’s unfair. yea, things are never fair though. I was trying hard to get back the feelings i used to have with you in order to get over him. but things do not seems to go so well. I am comparing you and him all the while. I don’t know why the heck am I doing this. You are so much better than him in all aspects, what the hell am I still thinking and uncertain about? I don’t know. I want to get through all these shit, will you held my hand and get me through? I doubt that. Everyone is selfish, that’s human nature. so, fuck it. boy, I need to catch a breath now.
I couldn’t explain why my mood swing so easily. All i know is I have to stop my fucked up fairytale, prince charming and princess princesses dream. It never exist. never! Everything is just a dream and I have to walk up now to continue my journey.And when I am effin down, I hang out with my friends, and it helps 90% of the time. Shin always calm me down. Adele always crack out lame jokes and be by my side to help me get through everything. Mon always offer me hugs. and there’s always michelle with her concern. and many more that I couldn’t list all out. I appreciate all my friends and I am glad to have you people.
college life is too busy, it disallowed me to have even a little free time to think of others things, so many assignments and and exams coming on. and yes, I really start to love my classmates and those at my college, start to see how wonderful those people are. I had been too bitchy to hate them and thought I will never mixed with “those” type of people. Things are totally opposite now, I actually like them pretty much. Like how they being straight forward, love the gossips with them, and adore their lame-mess which most of the time made me laugh like crazy. I appreciate them for filling up color in my college life. thanks people.
I am so wrong and mess’d up now.
I need a new life.
Second serenade – FALL for you
* a wrong song for this moment! *

monster's world
November 12, 2008you will get it through. love you babe :)
フよこカた
November 12, 2008haha…nvm…i same with you luh=p
YaoYao
November 13, 2008Hehe.. i got no blog d.. cincai sign up 1..
Well, its happy to see u "this way"
But so sorry.. that "i'm one of ur fwen's page's" spammer.. but not realli spam.. juz a sentence include in comment only >.n"
But i'm not saying its "ashame" of anything..
It just.. some kind of expression showing that somehow u look pretty sad on that moment~ Y.Y
I never say i know how to see one's emotion thru the pics they took lar..
Maybe ur wordings make me feel so~
Anyway, fairytale got nothing wrong..
Of coz reality = reality cannot get a perfect 1..
So hor, maybe u look for something u realli wanted..
And not to get someone to be someone that used to have =)
Even-how also, u got ur friends there support u like u said..
So, dun be so sad le..
My friend who went to UK now sent me this quote "Be merry,happy and smile always" :)
Still, a "passerby" here wish u have a good present and future lifestyle =3
And arh.. UTAR realli that dao mei arh? @.@"
I heard advance from college also scary le..
Tot wanna go further next to Uni tim ~.~"
Guess i stay at TARC better lol..
Paiseh, my english very poor 1 n.n"
momotea87
November 13, 2008i mean your room and you also pink color,
look like the taiwan star Cindy Wong
” Wang Xin Ling” hehe….^_^王心玲
shermaine
November 13, 2008Hey darl, i love your photo shoot photos. Super pretty & hot!
And you're super slim & tall *envy*
haha,you take good care aite (:
loves,
shinyee
November 13, 2008always here fr u babe. things will get better, believe in dat! loves.
Siying
November 13, 2008Maybe in life, a lot of things never go according to what we want, but still, we have to go thru all these to have a better future…
‘Stop blamming and start thinking about the solution…’
If you think that you had made a mistake, don feel too sorry to yourself or anyone else, put more effort to find the best solution to solve every single problem that you had face.
Anyway, hope you will get the life that you want when you open your eyes the next morning.
Have a nice day, and fck off all the jerks…
(^_^)
BanaNA
November 14, 2008hmm,maybe and mostly you don’t know who am i…but then, im viewing your blog quite frequently,well although just get to know you from your blog,but seems that you had a problem on a guy,hmm…cheer up,your friends all always be there to lend a shoulder for you as you mentioned…^^ be cheerfull and be happy ya ^^
BanaNA
November 14, 2008Hmm,you probably and mostly don’t know who am i,im actually viewing your blog quite often,hmm..it seems thta you have a probelem with a guy for a quite some time,cheer up ya ^^ your friends will always be there to lend you a shouler as you mentioned in your post…be cheerfull and be happy ^^
ChuahKeHui
November 14, 2008i love you babe! don’t emo already k? we need to meet up again! the gathering the other day was not satisfying enough! haha.. tell me when you guys have holiday ok? *hugg*
smile ok hon? =D
EVELYN CHANG
November 14, 2008ur new header ver niceeee =D hehe~
B E L L
November 14, 2008Haha,spammer issues huh?Well,just fuck it seriously.I got hell lotsa spammers from no where.They are not worth for you to be upset nor be angry for.Don’t lose your cool like that and SMILE =)
CherliN :: Tzia
November 14, 2008mon – thanks babe, appreciated.
kahyin – huh? *blur*
yaoyao – I don't think fairytale exist anymore. it's just craps. lol. yea. i appreciate my friends. UTAR? not bad la, I got cool classmates. & got leng lui lerr. haha.
momotea – oo i c.. lol..
shermaine – nah, i m not la, just that I got a good photographer.
shinyee – i believe in you!
siying – 'Stop blamming and start thinking about the solution…' you're right. so what if I blame those that should be blame, things won't take a turn and be any better.
banana – haha, thanks for droppin by my blog so often. hmmm, I am now catching a breath and temporarily away from relationship now. =)
chuahkehui – call me up anytime la. =)
evelyn – thanks yea =) hee.
bell – i don't mind if they spam mine, i m used to it, cause I got tonnes too. I care when they actually spam my sister's one. ish! lifeless ppl.
B E L L
November 14, 2008imagine some stranger spam my HATERS cbox and said my mom is a slut.
Ironic right?
I always take it as a joke.
The purpose is actually you,but you got used to it.
So they try it on your family and friends.
You have to get used to it as well =)
Sweet,people just wanna see you sad for your family.
Be strong,you have to stay still till rumors can’t even affect your family.
I know you can right?Btw thanks for the wish =D
I have to hardcore party after SPM.
YaoYao
November 15, 2008It's ok if u not gonna belif in fairytale =)
Afterall we live under reality,
and 1 more year, u are 18 liao ma =3
My 18 wasnt a good one though..
Still, i appreciates those who realli "forced" by me to become my friends during college life XDXDXD
I found out hor… different course/year de.. always better than my own class'..
Secondary.. College also same d.. haizz..
Say bad luck.. i also bad luck wutt /.\
OMGWT* :X Ada leng lui? Ada available punya ka? >x<"
bagi phone number~ kekexx n.n"
Siying
November 15, 2008Reply:
Things won’t get better even though you blame them. And you are kinda waste your time for the jerks. Save your time and start to think how to get them off from your life… Isn’t better?
Have a nice day Tzia…