I was damm emo last night. I had a bad cry. I am failure in both love and friendship.
sigh. Thanks to jinhoong, joel and JJ for caring so much. Especially jin hoong that had made me realize that we, ourself decide whether to be sad or happy. He said there’s some part in me that enjoy being sad, I am sad because I want to get others pity and in order to get care which I think is quite true. I am desperately craving for love and care. hmm. But I am pretty sure that I will no longer be like that, I am going to decide my own feelings!
I am going to live happily.
I stay awake until 5a.m. and woke up on 9a.m.
well, I had a very bad morning today. I had experienced something really bad. which made me burst into tears. I had been crying a lot, I tried not to, but this is something that is out of my control. alright, skip this part.
You chose to abandon me from your kingdom.
without caring how bad I feel. It’s really cruel.
No smile is as beautiful as the one that struggles through the tears.
I forced myself to smile when I am crying last night. It’s hard. but at least, I had overcome my sadness.
sometimes, remain silent is better then everything.
I should not had control you so much.
You both will be good. I have faith in you both.
After that, went to Pyramid with my cousin who work in ERNST AND YOUNG accountant film as a senior manager, meet up with Maggie to do our interview with the cousin.
we had our interview session in SUSHI GROOVE. My cousin love japanese food.
well, we had interviewed the wrong person, she said she is unable to help cause she is not an accountant for a company, she work in a film, she then introduce me to her friend that work in Sunway college to help me. THANKS COUZZIE!
some of what she ordered. and all of it taste really nice.
Later on, went for photo shooting with Khai Shaun
the photographer. =) All this while I thought he is taking up photography, but he said he is in business. Photography is just his interest. I got really surprised.
and yea, thanks Khai Shaun =)
alright, I am keeping myself busy! to avoid unnecessary thought. sigh.
homework later =)